i fell in love with drinking at 14 the race horse took off non stop day-night by 26 and ended a year ago. i will have a year sobriety for the first time this nov.2 and come on, i would love to drink! i miss my wine, i miss my beer, my whiskey, i miss it all. it took me places where i could dream and not feel pain, my head. this year of sober life has been hard and the feelings have hurt so bad. i take meds for bipolar and they are the only reason i don't drink. i just want to be sane. i drank to feel funky, dreamy, sexual, untouchable. i miss the high, i always miss it. i am a person who loves to escape and feel high. i don't know, i have reason to live, and i have reason to keep my life straight because it's better than it's ever been. but my chest craves the feeling of alcohol running down it, oh well. i don't know? does it ever end?
Hi boticelli, Congratulations on your upcoming year! Way to go! It does get better. There may be times in the future where you think about alcohol or crave it but use the tools you have learned this past year to not pick up. Do you go to AA meetings? What are you doing to stay sober a day at a time? Speaking of a day at a time, that is how it is done - one day at a time. Keep coming and sharing. Keep working it. Have a great weekend! ((((hugs))))