Hi, i am wondering when the using dreams will stop. anyone know. i have been clean one year and still actively dream of drugs.
Hi
I still dream about it occasionally and it has been about a year and a half. It's definitely less frequent than it was at first.
well that is hopeful. It isn't always in my dreams but when it is whoaza it definatly is.
Hi gladyspeek,
I have been sober from meth since Aug.7,1995. To be honest, I still dream about getting high, and still sometimes have cravings. There are alot of "triggers" out there that get me to thinking about it. But you have to have that inner-strength. I began using in my 20's, my Dad, whom I had just met for the 1st time, turned me onto coke, then meth. Crazy, huh? I used from that moment, in April of 1984 and never really stopped until 1995. I quit coke turkey. Looked in the mirror one day and saw a skeleton. Scared the hell out of me. I used to be a hand model for commercials and photos in Las Vegas. I lost everything. Except for my life. Dont go back, no matter what. Call a friend, your pastor, whoever yo trust, when the cravings start. It is not easy, but it does get a little easier over time. My way of controlling the craving is just try and remember the withdrawals. Mine were terrible. Now, I have to go to rehab next week for pain killers my doctor prescribed, morphine and vicodin. Not sure how I will handle my chronic pain, but I will have to take it one day at a time. You ever need to vent, just let me know, okay?
Good luck and God Bless
Hippiechick1
Hippie chick, thanks for posting. I am 43 and have used since hmmm i was about 16. not meth then but whatever. i did not do meth until 1999. since then i think that was the hardest to quit. coke was easy once i made it through the withdrawels. meth is an evil thing and it does take your whole life in one sweep.
good luck with your chronic pain. I smoke pot for that. I do not take any perscriptions whatsoever that is my validation to smoke pot.
anyway
good luck and god bless you as well
Gladys
HI, I am new to this group and I am reaching out this morning.I am very glad to be able to read success stories. I have no idea what it is like to come off meth or any drug for that matter. I do activly smoke and take meds for my bipolar disorder, I find that the smoke helps to balance me out along with my meds.My dr knows I smoke and if i live in cali i would have an rx for it. Anyways that is just a little about me , I need to know for my self what it is like to be user of meth, but not do it and the only way I know how is to ask other recovered addicts. My boyfriend is an addict, so is most of my family in one way or another. But meth is a plague on my family and on my life even thought I dont use. I love a person that is addicted and he tries to tell me what it is like, but I dont really understand so I am looking understand this thing that I call a plague from satan. Dreams I did not even know that you all had dreams about it. Please help me to understand
Hi Angelsformarc,
First of all, I would like to commend you on staying away from meth or any drug of that kind, especially when you are surrounded by it. GOOD FOR YOU. As far as the dreams,
well, it is just as if you had any other dream, I guess. Kind of hard to explain if you haven’t been there, you know? The addiction is so overwhelming, it just consumes you, even after you have quit. Right after you quit, your mind thinks of nothing else. And, sometimes when you are thinking of something before you go to sleep, you dream about it. That is the best way I can describe it. Have you ever done something during the day, or talked to someone about something, and then you dream about it?
That is my best description that I can come up with. Does it make sense? I hope I helped somewhat. You just stay strong and yes, stay away from that “satan”. That is what I always said it was too! Let me know what you think, okay?
Best of Luck and God Bless
Hippiechick1
Joker_girl,
WOW. You hit the nail on the head. You see, after not using for all these years, I have forgotten alot of the details. Mainly because I try to block it out. You rock!! :) You are a great help to people!!! Thank you for that! Stay strong and God Bless!
Hippiechick1
Yes- I get this- it is like this- it gets so embedded in our muscle memory. It started to freak me out and so I tried all kinds of detox and that was the trick for me. No one every mentions that, they just say control it- cognitive, talking but that is good but only after a clean out- I did it with craniosacrial and ibogaine treatment- it really gets rid of the memory and creates an aversion so I don't even think about any of it anymore.
Be well and good luck
have a look: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=syztZcpj69U&feature=player_embedded
wow...after reading these posts i have a better understanding of meth use.thanks yall.im a 38 yr old female and have never personally tried any illegal drug (dont even take aspirin) and didnt have much knowledge of the evil drug world until my husband started using meth again. wow, that was an experience that i never wanna go thru again. the mental and physical abuse caused by his guilt, the loneliness and hurt, i cried rivers while we were going thru it. i couldnt understand y he would rather go and stay gone for days than be home with his wife and kids..that is a hurt greater than one can imagine...sorry to ramble but i love this site..anyway, my prayers were answered and he was busted 13 months ago, hes been incarcerated the whole time and still has a 6 year sentence to serve. i am in love with him and we have decided to work things out. he has found god and wants to be a father and husband which makes me a very happy person, but i still have the lil doubts in the back of my mind. and i feel awful cause i cant put all my faith and trust in him...any comments greatly appreciated..fran mann, i would like more information on the treatment u used plz
Hi, again and again everybody's story is so inspiring, I wish the whole world could hear you people. You are all suffering and yet want to help and want things to get better. I think that is courage!! I'm glad it helps understand the meth and other addictions. I got a lot out of reading Dr. Gabor Mate's book- to me any addiction stems from trauma, that's why there are the dreams and that is why it is so hard to get it out of the system- incarceration is a start but it may worsen the distress and need for the drugs. Good for you for trying- we can't abandon people. Of course you can't trust but you can work with him- whether its our kids or our partners, or even parents we have to try to get through to them. Trust at least that he does want to be better and be a good dad, but then help him stay on track and that part you don't want to trust until you see. Remember he doesn't have full control so even with 100% motivation, there needs to be a treatment to get the addiction out of him physically otherwise his body will keep hungering for it and none of us, no one can control that level of desire=)!!! I have found things like: cranial sacrial is for smaller issues, then there is EMDR which is good too, but not as intensive and then there is the addiction treatment at ibogaineclinic.com which is most intensive and faster in terms of effectiveness. Of course it's not the whole answer, but a very good start to clean out the trauma.
Good luck!!!
Hi gladyspeek, Sometimes people will have drinking or using dreams around their sober/clean anniversary. I know people who have been sober and clean for years and still on occasion will have drinking/using dreams. I am just glad to wake up and find it WAS just a dream.
yes pretty pleased they are only dreams.
Yes yes yes!! see it's because there are bits of memory left in our muscles and subconscious and it rises up. Any trigger will do it and you say"it WAS just a dream" is perfect- see you are in control but at the beginning before being clean for a long time, these bits rise up all the time to pull you back. People think its your choice or that its so easy, no way!!
I have to say when I read Joker_girl's post on meth addiction it was so accurate. It even made me cry :(! I am lost & dont know what I can do for my husband who is addicted to meth. I want to also applaud everyone for sharing their stories with all of us. Truly inspiring. I am still holding out hope that he can get well. If not soon I am so afraid that only bad things are to come.
Thanks again.
Mindy
Keep up the courage Mindy, there are solutions and your support is #1. We talked about interventions above that are great as a start- the more insight the better, the more physically free he is of the need the better and so on,
Keep trying!