The past few days were absolutely amazing and it sucks it had to end the way it did. Hopefully I can have fun like that again soon. I haven't been this happy in 5 years. If only he knew how far out the door he has pushed me to do the things I did. Hopefully he says yes to the open relationship concept so I don't have to feel so bad about it.
Glad you had a good time the last several days. Have you talked with him about things in the past and how it has pushed you? Or about an open relationship?
@Griz75 I’ve had better luck having conversations with inanimate objects during schizophrenic hallucinations than I do with him. I mentioned the open relationship and he immediately said yes with so much sarcasm. Followed up by if you get a girlfriend/boyfriend they have to help pay rent but he doesn’t understand that I’m just trying laid and dip, it’s difficult being a sex addict in a sexless relationship. Our sex life on top of the narcissistic relationship is just done. Mainly I’m too scared his heart is gonna give out now. He was recently told he has early stages of chronic heart failure and non-alcoholic liver sorosis. Dude is only 26 years old and was given 10 years at best to live and he’s still doing nothing to change that outcome when they told him he could potentially reverse it. I’ve begged him to do it for our son and that seems to make him want to do it even less.