Hello everyone!
I have missed all of you so much! I am so sorry this is the first time I am writing in months. I wanted to check in, and see how everyone was doing!
Well, I finished school which is crazy! This year went by so quickly. I got a new job at a restaurant. HA i know, how ironic! And you know what! I love it. Its fun, it keeps me busy, and I don't think about food in any bad ways. I run around so much and just eat when I am hungry when I have the moment to slow down and eat while I am there! Its great!
I have been eating what I want, when I want. I feel normal. I work out when I can, but honestly, its not crazy, or even too often some weeks. It doesn't bother me. I go when I want. And I don't even feel guilty when I don't go :)
And the best part of all! I saw myself in the mirror today. The real me. Not the distorted me I have seen for 4 years. My boyfriend wants to go celebrate! I am so excited. There is a light at the end of the tunnel! Who knew!
Your post is one of the most beautiful things i have read in a long time. It fills me with joy and hope to know that you have reached a point of happiness with yourself and have found a balance with food. It is truly inspirational and a momentous occasion to celebrate.
Allee I'm so glad you wrote on here. I don't visit the site much anymore either because it was doing more harm than good for me. Whenever I have a hard day I think of you and your strength helps pull me through. I am in a very similar place as you right now. I am enjoying my life so much and have come to the complete, comprehensive realization that I love myself just because, not for what I look like or what I have accomplished, just because I am me. I wish you the best of luck moving forward!