Therapy was good

I got alot of insight in therapy today and i find that the more i help people the worse i become for some reason. I've helped many people these days with great advice but cant seem to find the perfect advice for myself but thats whhy i love therapy so much. I'm still paranoid and delusional still having hallucination not very surprised by that at all. My meds make me eat but not a general type of hungry more of a im hungry and i want something sweet or im hungry and i want something greasy and salty it never ends. Not to mention i sleep too much im tired when i wake up and cant even get out of bed these days i have to fight myself to get out of bed. If i do end up getting out of bed i almost pass out in the shower and on the way to the shower i can barely walk and im still drowsy. I want my meds to work perfect so bad but its just not happening for me i want to eventually be "normal" enough to not have hallucinations, delusions, memory lost and even that occasional problem of talking to fast for anyone to understand. Im better than i was two years ago but i really really really want to just be okay everyday instead of waking up drowsy and groggy and then feeling a little depressed about it later on these days. Seems to be the story of my life.

I really do hope things get better for you.I'll be praying for you.

Thank you so much for that i pray for it every night too im scared about it all really

I know how you feel and I post some issues of mine on here. I could use a friend right now and if you think we have some of the same problems , maybe we can help each other out some and become better. Chris