there isn't a single place where i feel comfortable..at home, there's always those strange looks from my flatmates, those awkward silences, and behind my back all they do is talk about me and i don't feel like this is my home. I also have no one in my uni that even looks at me, talks to me..
I'm 19 and since I remember i've always struggled with anxiety. the simplest things to you are horrific to me! going to the supermarket, the doctor, a restaurant..i avoid it all. I've been by myself for a long time..i'm so lonely and lost and everyday is a new day for me to go through hell. sometimes i just want this to stop (really stop) but i'm not brave enough for that. I can't do anything. I can't live, I can't die by my own hands, I can't find anyone that cares for me and i feel like me being in university is a huge mistake..
You are young and have a whole life ahead of you, do something nice for yourself, take care of yourself, your confidence doesn't belong to people who put you down and don't appreciate you, becuase your confidence belongs to you. You are worth more than opinions of others. Hang in there you will be ok!!! Remember when your down that there is always something good around the corner and you are to strong to give up becuase of fear and hurt. Be confident in who you are I know it's hard but start to see the good in yourself and others opinions will be easily brushed off your shoulders. People can be unkind but usally they are struggling with something themselves and taking it out on you!