I haven't posted in a while...so a quick update. Things had been getting better in the past week or two. I got my wedding rings back, my husband moved back in, we started to hang out and talk more with less arguing...it was nice. I am however still walking on eggshells and being careful about what I say and do. I am trying my hardest to really focus and pay attention to what he is talking about and really listen to him. For the most part I felt like I was doing ok with it. I know I am not perfect and certainly need some work, but its not something I can change immediately overnight, I am a work in progress. I have also been feeling better about myself and my depression lately. I did start on zoloft last week and slowly getting used to it. And then yesterday happened....
So my husband and I had switched cars for a while since he does a lot of driving and I really don't do much. I had his car yesterday and got into what I felt was a minor accident. I rearended a woman at a stop light. It was in traffic and I wasn't going very fast. When I looked at the car, I didn't really think there was a lot of damage. Well my husband looked this morning and needless to say he flipped. He said there were a few things with the hood that I failed to mention to him. He claims he wasn't mad I got into the accident but feels I lied to him about how bad it really was. Which I don't feel like I did and I tried to explain that to him, however that just made him even more mad at me and he ended up hanging up on me. I feel awful enough about the accident as it is and now I feel even worse because he thinks I lied about it. I don't know what to say to him because if I try explaining myself he just says I'm digging myself into a deeper hole and I just needed to be honest in the first place and then if I don't say anything its me ignoring the situtaion and not facing reality. I can't seem to win.