This is a first for me being on one of these groups, but I n

This is a first for me being on one of these groups, but I need someone. *Possible Trigger Warning*I had a lapse about three months ago and have been doing really well, but lately I feel like I am drowning being pulled under further and further. I have been a "cutter" since I was twelve and have been one ever since. Before the last lapse I hadn't done it in about two years I was doing very, very well. I just....want to stop struggling under the water gasping for air and just....sink.

hugs and support to you. What have you tried so far to beat this and heal? what are you treatment options at this point. Stay strong and amazing.