This is not my day.. started off negative..throwing out accusations about my man lying to me, not going/doing what he said he was/is... calling him to 'check' on him, he called my bluff.. Not good!!! Then still not sure, text him I was going to be around so, in my mind, he 'wouldn't' do anything I think he shouldn't.. I have no reason to distrust him.. I don't want to go out of the house, I just want to drink & sleep, which i have not... YET!!! Am nervouse when he gets home, scared about facing myelsf to him... I don't know if I feel sad is Im not working or new meds for my hormones..... I don't like me today!!! this is the second time this week I feel icky!!! I want to be happy again!!
i also am extremly depressed and insecure about my relationship so much so that i tried to destroy it over the week end by stealing her atm card and going on a drinking binge for a few days. But i have come to the conclusion that i did it on perpouse so that i really would have to get clean and stay clean for the rest of our lives, so after alot of begging and fighting she agreed to give me another chance if i change my ways. So maybe you are trying to destroy your relationship just like me so you have no choice but to change your ways. I wish you luck as i know how being depressed and insecure about a relationship can truly be hell.