http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BFUHrXfuNU4
The healing process is extremely hard and difficult..but my counselor told me healing is not easy..in fact its a lot of very hard work.When I seen her my last session she said she has been amazed watching me grow.She was proud of all the hard work Ive been doing and that the person she met a year ago is not the person she sees before her.Looking back a year ago I have come through so much.But I feel this is only the beginning and I have so much more hard work to do..many more answers to seek.I still DON't know WHO I AM ..my heart is still SHATTERED into pieces.I FEEL so much..so much is still missing ..will I ever find all the answers ??..and WHY why have I had so much pain in my life?How can I be somebody if I don't know who I am?I am trying to allow myself to FEEL all the emotions..its emotionally draining.
I have these walls built up arounnd me that are
S L O W L Y...............falling!
Music speaks to me ..this song speaks to me it makes my heart skip a beat...I wanted to share with you all here.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BFUHrXfuNU4
grace--i am so proud of you. you have come such a long way --even from last december. i am so happy for you--and i remember as long as you posted here--even though you were deep in the ED your SPIRIT was strong and wanted to fight this! and so im happy for you --that you got help as i knew you could..
i know you have a lot of pain and questions as i do also, but i think in time you will know the answers to these questions....
and some things---are just not answereable but a learning process
im so happy to see you stronger and in a better place--i know we all have a long was to go but it PROGRESS that is important.
love
maureen
Grace...you definitely have moved forward a LOT, and taken some very scary steps in order to make your life better...aka..recovery! I see so much maturity in you with your recovery, and I know that you are growing in your own confidence as well. Take care...Jan ♥
Hey Grace,
You are right. Therapy is definietly not the "easy way out". It is so difficult at times. There are certain songs I cannot listen to cos I will just burst crying like somewhere over the rainbow....I find heartbreaking.
You are being so strong, I wish i could i be as strong as you at times. I feel like i am failing those around me and myself.
Keep doing what you are doing hun. You are shining example of what can be achieved.
Love to you
MG x
Beautiful, Grace! ♥ Thank you for sharing that! :)
You are right, it's a lot of hard work and it is sometimes very scary. But I always say what doesn't kill me will make me stronger.