This may sound a little ridiculous. I have two major things on my mind. One is my future/career. I have a job that has a lot of room for growth, the people and the environment are great and I make really good money. The problem is it is just so stressful and I'm actually really unhappy there. I work as customer service in car insurance. As you can imagine, we have a lot of angry people calling in and they will attack you because they don't care that you are also a person. I'm quite conflicted on what I want to do. I have my units to be a preschool teacher which is what I originally went to school for but teaching is just not a place to go into right now. My psychologist told me to become a psychologist. I can't say I've never thought about that. People have told me to do that since I was twelve and as I love helping people, that would be extremely rewarding. However, I could literally ruin someone's life and that is very stressful as well. My friend asked me to plan her wedding. I remember when I was planning mine how much fun I had with it and decided it might be fun to be an event planner. There would be crazy people with that as well. My ultimate dream has always been to be an actress but that is quite unattainable to accomplish while working full time. So here I am contemplating my future.
On another note I'm also unhappy with my lack of a love life. This does sound superficial, I admit and I hate the way that I feel. The fact is, I'm twenty four and everyone is now getting married and having babies. Some of my closest friends just announced both of these things to me recently and I am really very happy for them. However, I also cried. I cried because I am nowhere near getting married or having my own family. That is all I have wanted since I was a kid and this time last year that was all happening. I'm glad I'm not building a future with my ex fiance but I would like to be building it right now. So many people tell me, you're young, you have time. Maybe that is so for other people my age. For me, I was told three years ago to have babies as soon as possible. The older I get, the less chance there is for me to have a baby. I want to share my life with someone again and I want to start building a family and a future. I have no one in my life that is considerable for such a thing and I am constantly meeting new people but it doesn't seem to matter. As I said, this may sound ridiculous but these are my feeling and these are real fears for me.
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I've got no advice, but I just wanted to say this doesn't sound ridiculous at all. You're just being aware of what you want out of life. Sensible.
you
have career and personal life prob which most people have nowadays,for
career you need to pick up what do u like and money,your other interests
can go hand in hand like a parttime,you can go to career
counseillor,for lovelife you get things when the time is right, if u
want a baby rightaway there is also adoption and other ways
Take your time. And you DO have time. I plan on getting married when im much older judt because im in the navy now and would love to travel. Who wants a baby to hold them down??? Dont rush it. Have fun because if you do you might regret it. Enjoy life and let it take its course for you. Dont push anything, just relax. Everything will come when ready. Your still figuring out what you want to do. Get yourself together before you think about anything else. Also.....your young. No pressure in having a baby. And trust me, you want your sleep and freedom dont you? You cant get that with a kid lol enjoy yourself before you get too serious. Plus there are women who get pregnant in there 40's. Dont sweat it. Judt know that you are still on your journey, you will find what your looking for once you are done. Focus on you right now. Men aren't going anywhere and babies are sometimes easy to make. Then you can always adopt. Jokes on them honey. At least you'd wake up refreshed and gorgeous lol
I can't give any advice either. But I know what it's like to have people say you've got time. And it bothers the living **** outta me. I'm 41 and only had two relationships... not because I didn't want any either. And my first one wasn't until I was 26. Was forced out of my second one about 3 years ago.
I guess just hang in there. I know it's tough. I barely even have anyone interested in me either.... maybe one, maybe two women at most. And until that interest becomes serious, my hands are tied. So yeah, it can hurt to be forced to be alone.
I appreciate all of your support. Clearly, I want a baby though. I understand what happens when you have a baby. I understand how hard it is but I also understand how rewarding it is. I am actually running out of time and it scares the hell out of me that I won't be able to ever have a child of my own. Yes I know there are other ways but I would really like to have a baby of my own. It's a very stressful thing for me and when my fiance left me last year, it turned my world upside down. We have a future planned out and suddenly I have to reinvent myself and figure my life out all over again.