when i was young my bio father has always threatened us that he will kill himself if he doesn't get it his way or he will kill us. Now that i'm 25 years old it feels like every time i have a problem, I just have thoughts of killing myself...I pray every time i have this thoughts because I don't want to do it, its the devil's work. But i just have these flashbacks when my dad threatened us. What can i do?please somebody out there help me? My family doesn't know that i have these thoughts, i don't want to worry them. I'm just scared that one day they might see me hanging from a ceiling. I'm trying really hard to make myself emotionally stronger but it just hurts too much sometimes. I was a slasher before. Every time I had problems I slash my wrist or part of my legs.
Hi again! I think that you already know that it is not an option for you, keep reminding yourself of this. In reading through your posts, I think that it would be so helpful for you to talk to a therapist in order to help you work through these emotions. Is this a possibility?
I hope you're not self harming anymore because from what i've learned it only causes more problems. I'm sorry yo hear what you're going through and what you went through. It sounds like a very scary thing. Perhaps you should see a therapist if not already. The thoughts you're having is very serious n i highly recommend you talk to your family. Good luck and take care of yourself. <3
@puppydoglr:I don't have enough money yet for a therapist...but that will be the first on my list as soon as i am able to get a job.. thank you so much...:-)
@4evr_dreaming16: i am not harming myself anymore, but sometimes i think of it... i just try to stop it... but i will seek help as soon as possible... thank you so much...it feels good to talk to someone
Paula, please keep sharing with us here and know that you are not alone. We are here to help you through this as best as possible. I know that you will get to therapy as soon as you have a job. Let's work on getting you to a good happy place and give you lots of purpose.
@puppydoglvr: thank you...and yes I will be doing that as soon as possible. I don't want my family to know about this because we already have too much problems as it is...
Okay, please let me know if I can help in any way. Please keep sharing with and let me know how things are progressing.