Okay I'm 18 I have had an eating disorder since I was 12. When I was 12, I was anorexic. Now, I'm an out of control bulimic. I binge almost everyday.. Sometimes even 3 times or 4. My body is tired of it I know. I have done everything to lose weight like take diet pills, work excessively at the gym, throw up, starve myself, take laxatives. My parents have no clue that I am this sick. They thought I recovered a while ago, when really I am worse than ever. I need people to talk to about this because I want the strength to be done with this. Please help!!!:(. I just hate my body but I want to lose weight healthily. Thank you!
well i wish i had talked to somebody and reached out for help when i was 18 so in my mind your ahead of the game already....i can only tell you about my stuggles....i devoloped my eating disorder at 13(or should i say it presented itself then) i believe that we are born with this it is a disease...i dont know if i really had a healthy relationship with food before that but i know at 13 i started throwing up, binge eating and exercising excisively and taking laxatives...i lost alot of weight and got alot of attentention because i was chuncky to begin with...from there it never ended...i never said anything untll i was 24...,i had /was diagnosed with bulemirexia....it has been with me always i am now 41....the damage is so horrible on my body and alot of it can never be reversed because i have suffered for so long...its something that you can learn to live with but i will say it will always need to be treated and then managed like a diabetic or anybody else with a disease....it can go into remission but it never can not need to be watched....if i can tell you anything its is that i have learned its about feelings and emotions not about how you look....its about learning to accept who you are faults and all....the longer it goes untreated the more it takes hold body mind soul...there is more understanding today but is still very misunderstood at the same time...alot of people think its something you just chose to do and there is nothing farther from the truth...it is a disease plain and simple and you have to treat it....reconizing you need help is a ground breaking start....how can i help?
that sounds like me :) i was diagnosed with anorexia at 14 and then just became bulimic straight after now im nearly 18
i binge almost everyday and more then once also i really want help its so hard when no one else knows and you cant talk to anybody about it,
this is a good website i hope you can get over it im going to keep trying :)
MCF - I'm sorry for your pain. i know it all too well. I could have written you post AND Kvogel4 and Brose'. Its a LIFELONG struggle and I'm not even 1 bit closer to recovery after almost 20 years. I've tried everything and nothing seems to work. I KNOW one can recover (as several on this site are there) but for some reason I can't find my path to recovery. I hope you can find help as you are so young - I didn't start this until 26....
Kvogel4 - please check your private messages on this site as I sent you a note.
All the best,
Caroline