Today is mothers day. I sat and stared at the phone for what felt like hours today debating on whether to actually call my mother or not. I somehow finally ended up dialing her number. I struggled with each digit. Every ring I contemplated just hanging up. I heard her voice say "hello" and held my breath. After telling her Happy Mothers Day the initial couple of minutes of the conversation were surprisingly tolerable. Not pleasant, but definitely tolerable. Then things quickly declined. As she began to lecture me about all of my current life decisions I wondered why I had even called. I wish I understood her dyer need to dismantle me and leave me emotionally wounded every time I engage her. I stumbled on my words and made up a reason that I needed to go. Does anyone else struggle with Mother's Day?
I struggle.
@RachelThePotato I hope you got through the day with grace and managed to stay calm and hopefully somewhat happy