Today was hard. I feel judged. I know I look so fat and all

Today was hard. I feel judged. I know I look so fat and all I could think about was everyone is thinking the same thing.
I was very close to turning around and not going just because of that.
But the thing is that it takes time.
I know one day I am going to be back where I was and even better
But it takes time.
So am I going to hide for 6 months?
I did this to myself so I have to deal with it. But it was painful.
Darlene (the grandma) is always talking about losing weight.. and I know she was thinking I looked fatter then the last time she saw me! And on top of that my stomach is not happy..
so what do I do? I eat 500 calories of fat! That will help! NOT!
I’m just having a low fat! I feel disgusting.. and I also know tomorrow is going to be better!
Peace

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Hope you are moving on from this experience and want you to know -you sound like one of the strongest ppl out there. I like that you see choices you made, accept them but don't dwell on them and know tomorrow brings new chances and starts. That's inspiring!

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@Littlesis7 Aw… thank you. :slight_smile:
We have to keep fighting.
We are never alone either. We have Angels watching over. I call on them often. <3