I was a little scared to bring this up.. but I really would like to talk about it and get it off my chest.
Whenever I feel like I have eaten too much or eaten something I shouldn't have.. I will either scratch myself (I made a post about it,) or.. turn to gravol. It is a medication you take when you feel sick. You are only suppose to take up to 2. But lately.. I find I have been taking a lot. For awhile I was doing up to 3-4 gravol a day. Anytime I ate I would take it. It is like my go to response now. Stress, fear, worries, guilt, I take gravol for it all. I know I should not but I do it anyway. Last night I think I took like 6 children's gravol which is of course a lower dosage, but still.. I don't know why I do it. I feel like I can not stop
Hi Michelle, thank you for sharing this with us. How and why did you start to turn to gravol? Was there a certain trigger?
I'm not sure. I guess I felt it was numbing the pain and the voices of ED. It hushed him somewhat. I think that is the main reason why I will take it
Michelle, I don't think that it's good to numb what is really going on, I think that it's so worth getting to the root of all of this; your ED, and working through it. I know that it may be a bit scary and may seem like a tough road, but I did it and I'm 15 years recovered. I am happier and healthier than I've ever been in my life. Let's please try to find a way to work through this and get you to the better end of things; recovery.
Thank you puppydoglvr. I really appreciate your support
Of course, I am here for you and just want to see you get through this because I know that you will come out better and stronger on the other end of it.