****TRIGGER WARNING**** I have not eaten at all yesterday

Mental Health Eating Disorders & Body Dysmorphia
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****TRIGGER WARNING****

I have not eaten at all yesterday and I really don't want to eat today either. But, I also want to go to the Misfits show...please help. :(

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take energy drinks. so that u are not weak...

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@kaamini

I’ve never really been keen on the whole energy drink thing…perhaps that’s why my restriction sessions are so “interesting”.

I feel weak, mentally and psychically.

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@kaamini now that is a better idea.

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Thank you I'll try...whenever I eat though. It hurts like hell and I gain a sort of sick pleasure from not eating... Perhaps if my body gets used to eating I will be able to reverse this relapse. Idk

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@MCRandBVBsavedmyLife that is all anyone can ask of you is to try.

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The question really is why do you feel this way? Regardless of the answer, it comes back to basically being kind to yourself and not letting yourself devalue you or take the blame for problems outside your control. Everyone has the right to be happy, but some don't realise that comes from inside, you. So my simple advise is to be kind to you. Good luck.

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@Travelled

How do I do that? I hate myself and don’t even deserve food…I’m grossly overweight (in my mind) and will never get a girlfriend.

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I'll try to eat...it just hurts so much :(

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@MCRandBVBsavedmyLife is it your stomach that hurts?

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My dad just coached me into making a blueberry protein shake thing...I feel mentally traumatized and it friggin hurts. However, I am grateful at the same time. It's weird.

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Hey, we all care about you. Can you take in that love and realize you're an amazing person. Your compassionate heart is like a bright fire on this screen! Hugs

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@annieamygdala good post.

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Are you in any type of therapy? You don't have to be perfect to be loved. You will have a girlfriend. You deserve to be cherished and to cherish someone else. I have a terrible mental condition and my husband loves me. He is an amazing man who has compassion like you. You already ARE loved, so of course you will have a girlfriend. You just need to get in a therapy group and get out of your house. She is waiting.

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@annieamygdala

Thank you! You are an awesome person. :slight_smile: I am planning on going to an ED support group tomorrow. Wish me good luck, I’m fairly nervous.

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Good to hear and best of luck.

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@kaamini

I know, but for some reason I still want to restrict…perhaps it is the sense of control of not eating. Or perhaps it is the fact that it started at a young age and my brain has been hardwired to think this way. Either way I’ll fight it and eventually win.

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@Lovetolaugh

It’s all good. That little tangent brightened my day. :slight_smile: