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(I'm not really sure if this qualifies as a trigger, but just to be safe)
I don't understand why self harm is such a bad thing.. Maybe I'm just blind, but it seems to me that the only "harm" it does is physical. And even that isn't all that bad. Everyone I've talked to about this says that the reason why it's bad is because it doesn't help. BUT just because it doesn't help, does that mean it's hurting me? I know I must be wrong somehow, because no sane person would try to condone hurting oneself. Sometimes I feel like I stopped cutting because people told me it was bad, not really because I wanted to stop. I don't know, I just can't figure out why it's wrong to cut. PLEASE SOMEONE EXPLAIN TO ME. I DON'T LIKE THAT I CAN'T FIND A REASON.
@AllisonH0099 Hi to you and AdieuBlue, I am not 'social' at all and infact, have pushed 'All' my friends 'Far-Away' from me. Even family... Well, I don't actually 'Like' any of my family apart from my 'Mum' who, pushes me and doesn't 'Understand' me but, she's my mum... I just feel so 'Isolated' but at the same time, I feel 'safe' in my own company (if that makes sense). A lot of 'things' have happened to me in my life which, have made me the person I am today. I don't 'Trust' easily and I know 'why' I self-harm but, I can't stop. For me, it is a 'coping' strategy and, a way of 'control' for me, even though, it sometimes (quite often) 'controls' me... I have 'nobody' who 'understands' this or, indeed 'Me' but, I don't understand myself so, how do I expect anyone else too... I wish, I could go back to the beginning before, any of 'ME' was corrupted and changed. Right back to when I was a 7 yr old 'Happy-Go-lucky' child who, didn't have a 'Care-In-The-World' and then... My world became 'Hell' and I was changed forever... I'm here for anyone who wants to talk and you can PM me if you'd like to... I wasn't misplace 'Trust' or 'Abandon' and I totally 'Get It', I do... Sent with love, Trish x
I am here if you need someone to talk to.
Sos for spelling mistake at bottom... Should have read 'won't' misplace not wasn't which, is how it reads... Trish x