****Trigger warning***** It was about a year since I last c

****Trigger warning*****
It was about a year since I last cut, until last night. Recently, my long-distance boyfriend and I have been talking a lot less recently, which has made me feel pretty ****. Then, the topic of rape has been coming up a lot recently, (I was raped) making me relive the event multiple times.

is it a situation where you can say, "hey, i don't want to talk about rape." or can you change the subject to a different topic. something safer and easier to talk about. i know it isn't easy to do, but it can work. i know i was around my friends and they started talking about sex slavery. i want to run away. sometimes it is too much for me to hear about. i grew up with sexual abuse so i understand. i kind of froze up and let them do the talking.