So May 27th I was emotionally and verbally abused by my narcissistic mother again... but for the last time... I cut her off. She has always treated me like I will never be freaking good enough!!! So.. ever since then... I've been wanting more and more to feel the pain of the needle going through my lip for another piercing. So, I purchased a bottle of Santero Moscato Rose.... and I have some sterilized needles, orajel, and the horseshoe lip ring. I am gonna be piercing later this month and getting drunk. I hate myself today. I wish I could do it today, but the kids will be home soon.
So proud of you for doing this, I had to do it with my father, so I know the pain of having a parent like this. As far as the self harm, this isn't going to take the pain away, you have to realize that you did a very brave thing and should really be very proud of yourself! Hugs!
Im glad you got away from your mother. I know its hard cutting someone out of your life that you care about but its for the best to improve your life and the life of your children. I haven't spoken to my narcissist mother in almost a year and I cant tell you how great it is to not deal with her guilt trips and all the emotional damage she was causing me and my sister. You did the right thing be proud! It takes a lot of courage to stand up to your mother.
I know the feeling... My mother and I havent spoken to one another since 2007. All those years prior, I needed support from her and all she ever did was put me down and no different from how your mother treated you, verbally abused me. Never once have she acknowledge the great things ive accomplished. But she was real fast to criticized about any little thing I do. I couldnt live feeling like that anymore so i one day made the decision to cut her out of my life. One of the Hardest, but healthiest (mentally) choice I've made for myself. No longer am I second guessing about what she'll think or her input on any matter. Dont get me wrong, i still love her, but i realize for my own happiness, I came to accept that she cant be in my life constantly bringing me down as such. I wont allow it. So yeah, glad you're able to realize that and step away from it all. As hard as it may seem, for your own well being and piece of mind, you did whats best.
@Noctis mine still tries to contact me through my mother in law and I am like… I don’t care to hear about her sob stories. Now I have to go and let my mother in law know that I do not want to hear from my mother, either through messages passed from her, through my mil to me, or her trying to contact me, Sheesh… I can’t stand narcissistic people…
Yeah, its the relationship is toxic to you (even if its your own mother) you have to let it go and live for your own happiness. And yeap, its like why do you even involve other people, like if anything, you're just making me look worst in my eyes. I understand.