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This is my at age 5 my babysitter rape me two ways. Age 8 my own dad rape me in a bad 9-16 my step dad would rape me everyday sometimes more then once and he let is friends do it to he told me he had a right to do what he was doing to me and i believed him so it went for years. At 18 i was gang raped by five friends. And the girl i was living with plan the whole thing they kwpt me there for hours doing things to me. I had a mess up life
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Im so sorry to hear that. Are u getting help? It took me years of therapy to admit it to only close people.
I haven't been getting help for a year need to go back i still hear there voices when sleeping
I wake up kicking n screaming n thing im lockednin that room again. My shrink put me on meds that help w the nightmares.
I don't understand why people rape children my whole life it happened to me and my head is mess up
I dont understand it either. i was raped by my baby sitters husbands. I look back now n she had to know. she bathed their kids but he bathed me. How canba mother allow that to happen. Then my own mother said i was a lair till other girls came forward. I have daughters now of my own n i hate leaving them w any man.
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My mom called me a lair when i told her the my step dad was raping me she hit me and i nevvr told again till i wrote a letter to a friend in school a d she give jt to the teacher then i told the teacher what was happened to me
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At least u did that. if noone else came forward i wouldve bottled it up. I was rsped at 15 n i told my mom n she said well if u werent such a teasee it wouldnt have happened. The thing was i didnt have friends, i didnt go out i stayed home n did homework n read. it was my fault cuz i was walking home from the store. Not having mothers be there didnt help w the mental of it either
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@cleanmomof3 it wasn t ur fault it was the person that did it
OMG... im so sorry to hear of this. It must have been really hard for you because its been on going through out your life and those around you just turned you into a victim the entire time. thats just horrible. Im glad that you're not able to speak of it and yes, therapy would do some good, but its not an over night cur either. Tkae yourself out of that victim mentality and change yourself to become a stronger person. Dont allow all those terrible things that happened in the past control how you deserve to live your life. Reclaim your life one day at a time. Best wishes towards you.
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