My grandmother had a stroke 2 weeks ago, the hospital she is currently in has been under lock down the entire time, and we have not been able to see her since she was admitted. Today we finally got the results from the MRI, and well, it was a rather large stroke that occurred on the left side of her brain, she is now blind in the right eye, has lost the ability to comprehend and language process is also a problem. It has been a struggle everyday since this happened, and not being able to see her only makes matters worse. I find myself crying more often than not, and I cannot begin to explain the void I now feel. I am getting married in a few months, and as much as I try to enjoy the moment, this is the most bitter-sweet experience I have ever been faced with.
I have never heard of a hospital being under lock down and you not being able to see your loved one! I am so incredibly sorry that after two weeks of waiting you were given such disheartening news! My husband's grandfather with whom he was VERY close with died 10 days before out wedding, I wasn't even sure what the right thing to do in this situation, everyone in the family told us we had to go on, that this is what he would have wanted, I think he would have wanted was to be alive, but all this to say that your day and wedding preparations shouldn't have a damper on them. Your grandmother, I am sure, loves you a ton and would be heart broken if you didn't have the best time planning for your big day. It is natual to mourn, but don't allow your joy to be run over with grief.
Hugs-
CK
Hi Ck,
I cant even begin to express how thankful I am that you took the time to read and reply to my painful struggle post. I take comfort in knowing there are people like you out there who have encouraging words to share. I am a rather strong woman ( or at least I like to believe so) and I have stayed pretty strong throughout this ordeal. Grams is the strongest woman I have ever known in my 29 years of exsistence, and I guess this is my time to be just as strong for her. It’s difficult knowing that she can’t retain or comprehend anything we tell her, but I know deep down somewhere lies the woman I’ve always known. I miss her more than words could ever say, and hopefully soon I’ll be able to face all this, and be thankful that she is still with us, even if she doesn’t know who 'us" is…