Two nights ago I told myself: GET OVER IT! and all of the sudden, I felt better!!!
Yesterday I went to my psychologist and barely cried (huge improvement). I told her I was still very sad but also mad. Mad about the way he was making me feel, like our marriage didn't matter, like our vows didn't mean a thing... not knowing where he is or when he'll come back... making me feel so small and humiliated.
He told me on Friday he would be back today or tomorrow. I haven't spoken to him since. I'm wondering now if he is going to stay abroad longer and simply leave me waiting more.
Again I woke up sad ... just so sad
Stay strong. Warm hug for u..
@su3zy Thank you. I’m just SO SAD! I haven’t seen him in a month! We have never been apart this long. I miss my husband. I just want him to come back and talk… and give him a hug. I wnet out for a couple of drinks with a friend yesterday and I’ll be watching a game tonight with another friend… so I know I’m doing what needs to be done and giving him his space as well as keeping busy… but its so hard when I constantly have this pain in my heart and I feel like NOTHING makes me smile anymore
I can understand the emptiness and the loneliness u feel without your husband by your side. It`s like you`ve got butterflies in your stomach. You`re lucky though because you still have your friends for a company even for a while. :)
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@su3zy Thats ttue… but nothing feels the void I have for my husband.
He has been away for almost a month… supposed to get back this week and he needs to tell me when because I am supposed to stay with a friend for now… and he hasn’t even texted me or anything… which probably means he hasn’t even bought the ticket… I feel so lied to, so small…
I`m so sorry to hear that. This might be a silly question, have you texted him or call him, asking directly when will he be back? Or is he unreachable?
@su3zy He is in another country so we use whatsapp. Can’t call him because his phone doesn’t work there. Last Friday he wrote me saying he would be back today or tomorrow. But I have bot heard from him since. He told me
he is in an area he doesn’t always get internet. and he hasn’t logged on to whatsapp since sunday. He had asked me to not be in the house when he got back and I told him he needed to let me know when he would be back so that 1. I could pack and 2. I wouldn’t be leaving my cats alone in the house unnecessarily. He hasn’t contacted me so Im guessing he hasn’t even bought the tickets
I have read your previous post so i get the picture now. To be honest we are in the similar situation. I`m having a fight with my husband last week, moved out for couple of days and i faced him asking for another chance for us. Like your husband he said he we can`t be together anymore and then change his mind said that he need more time with one condition that i still stay in thr same house with him. Now actually he acting cold towards me, ignoring me sometimes. For me i have to be patient because i have a daughter with him, i need to really think it true whether seperate is good choice not just for us but also for our daughter. For now that`s the situation i have to endure, he can go out anytime without telling me, i dont have any right to ask. So this is a situation i`m in. I mean you have to think it thoroughly because he might did the same thing to u just like my husband. To be honest, feels like hell.
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@su3zy oh wow Im so sorry. I just wish he would respect me and think about my feelings like I do of his! I would never just ip and leave for a month!!! this is soooo ridiculous disrespectful and it hurts so much. our life together is just starting out and I do want it to work but with every day that passes by and he is still not back I die a little more inside and my feelings towards a reconciliation diminish 
yet i still hurt, love him and miss him.
Feeling sad is a normal reaction, no matter what happened in your relationship it is a connection that died and sadness is accepted and expected
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I think in time you will heal. It`s normal to feel wanted and then frustrated, broken hearted when the feeling is not mutual. I hope your husband will come back soon, it`s not right to keep you hanging like this, at least any closure would be good than this. If you need anyone to talk to, you can msg me anytime.. You are the first person here that i really have conversation with :) thank you.
@su3zy Thank you so much. you can message me at any time
too. As we speak I am drinking during my lunch break and making plans for the week. I know… not good! But i needed an escape!!!