This is my first day on this website--I looked it over and it looks fantastic, so I hope I can get some advice on some issues I'm having a hard time with. I write this here because I feel very alone as a result from these feelings, as well as I don't seem to be getting any other posts in the other discussion board.
I was in a relationship with a man three years ago, and at the time, I don't think I could have been any more happy. In short, I invite you to imagine a first love with talks of marriage and dreams, etc. His family loved me--it seemed perfect for me.
However, as most stories of young love, things fell apart. I moved away to the US, and he stayed behind at home. After almost a year of him telling me that he loved me, and that he missed me, I found out (through his mother, of all things) that he was dating his ex-girlfriend. Long story short, there was lots of pain, lots of long phone calls, and lots of tears on my part.
Fast forward to three years, I am still thinking about him every day. I have a wonderful boyfriend, who I know is in love with me, and I believe completely that I love him. However, I am convinced that there are still some feelings that are unresolved that I cannot seem to forget. I cut off contact with him for two years, and one day I decided to visit him. He brought up our falling apart, and me disappearing from his life for two years--I brought up him treating me terribly and lying to me throughout our long distance relationship. He didn't seem to understand the pain that he put me through, and I didn't really want to tell him either. I felt like it was pointless. He was still dating the girl he was cheating on me with, but I felt numb to the whole idea. His whole family was there, but I couldn't bring myself to feel the same way as I did before--I felt uncomfortable, and had lost the sense of belonging, even though his parents were very nice to me. Now, I have renounced ever seeing him and his family again, but I can't seem to move on. People tell me that I should try to talk to him again, but realistically, I know that's not going to happen. I think about him constantly, feel bitter and hurt all the time and it's getting in the way of me having a fulfilling relationship with my current boyfriend.
If anyone has any advice, it would be very helpful. I tried to make this short, as I know some people have short attention spans. :) Thank you for reading.