Up for 49 hours noww................ three years after divo

up for 49 hours noww................ three years after divorce still can't get it together... saw ex in church today with her dad i literally thought i was going faint or worse ... really don't know if i get over that swapping kids back and fourth... feel the need to leave the state and start my bucket list... but of course the pain of even thinking about moving away from my boys would probably send me over the edge. spent all night venting and finding some energy thru my discust with people beittling and dismissing cheating.. it still makes me sick what she did and how it / i let it affect me

sounds like you need some sleep. Maybe you will be more calm and be able to think clearer after wards. I am very sorry for what you have gone through and are going through

much better today with some much needed sleep... Just wanted to thank you and hope your doing well also..