using too much of RX and now I have to make it thru to next month on 1/3 the medication, already in a little withdrawal but have taken the right amount yesterday and so far today... i keep it a secret from everyone... i am in red alert mode already bc of taking so much (bingeing) and then so little so fast and must function. how do i hold it together, and how do i not binge. (<- that is my big one....does anyone else relate, please comment if so) i hope you're all getting something out of being here...takes strength, this is my first time on one of these and it's kinda scary... i'm always scared it's going to make me "found out" but i need help.
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Hi welcome im glad you are looking for support. Come here when you feel like you want to binge. How did you go today?
Hey! Thanks for your response. That was nice to wake up to. Yesterday I did well, I took what I need to be taking in order to make it thru to end of month and not run out (very important as I get suicidal if I go completely off meds) so today is day #3
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@lily327 your very welcome 
you did well yesterday. I hope you are proud of that. Small victories, one day at a time. How are you going today?
Hey thx I'm doing ok actually. I'm in a moderate to high amount of withdrawal but I think I'm functioning about as highly as I possibly can. I always binge eat when I go into withdrawal so that's tough for me. Right now, I am feeling pretty good; however, I worry about the triggers. Because I have for years associated "problem = pill pop"
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@lily327 ok well maybe we can talk about some of those triggers see if we cant reduce them and introduce a new coping mechanism. I know it sounds so easy lol i will be here to talk when you need it. Is every problem have that response in you?
After 5 years, ya pretty much. I can't keep doing it tho it's taking too much away. I'm on day 4. This all has to be done w bf not noticing, we were at a concert last night and I felt so sick, the withdrawal is severe, I keep breaking into hot and cold sweats and moaning all night due to the nausea. I can barely move and my measly 4-hour week job is all that I can manage to get myself to get up and do and even that is killing me.
Hang in there, what helped me was that I knew if I slipped, I would have to start the whole f_____n W/D process all over again-ugh, but the good news is little by little- you will feel better. It's a fact. Just don't start over....
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Thanks, how long was ur withdrawal
@lily327 how was your day today?
If you ever need to talk I am here...
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@Mike2ndChance thank u.