've been unable to get closure from an "almost" relationship that "ended" 1.5 years ago. I made the mistake of having sex with him, and now he's with someone new but I'm still single. I know its no one's fault, but I can't help but feel lonely and angry and am experiencing emotional longing. I feel cheated by him and by God. I experience regret and recently went back to self harm to cope with my feelings. I don't know what to do anymore. ####trigger warning###
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When my engagement ended it took me many years, and many mistakes in order to be able to justify closure to myself.
Being angry and being upset isn't helping you. The more you think about him and the more energy you devote to hating him the more power he has over you. You are giving him more power over your happiness then he is worth.
I know at this point that probably doesn't make a lot of sense, but I assure you the more time that passes and the older you get the easier it will be to just let it go. The only way you will be happy with yourself and the only way you will be able to find something better and more worthy of yourself is to just let it go.
Thanks for your insightful comment ") There's just an emotional longing, and regret at having sex too soon because I felt like I have given my heart away to someone who isn't there anymore. I have forgiven myself, but there is a feeling of emptiness which I cant resolve. I thought of reaching out to him to talk about it, but there isn't a point since he and I can't be together. I'm going to talk to my therapist about this on Friday and hopefully shed some light!