Wake up this morning regretting last night and still having

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Wake up this morning regretting last night and still having panicked and depression all over the place. It became harder to breathe and the tears haven't stopped yet. What's the first thing I do: take 10mg of ativan to just make everything go away. I just woke up in a hot sweat, panicking hard with my mind racing.

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@Pathetic What happened last night? Would you like to talk about it?

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@Christine19 short story, roommate issues and spiraling depression with suicide thoughts all night.

Long answer I'm sick of the loneliness. I'm sick of feeling unwanted. I' | Support Groups

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I am sorry to hear that. Try to calm down. Take a deep breath. Do things that you enjoy to get your mind off of it. If you ever need someone to talk to I am always here for you!

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@Rose2131 I can’t do anthing I enjoy, because I don’t enjoy it anymore. I can’t keep calm this time. I’m sorry for my next actions

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I went ahead and took 5x my antidepressant dosage (and I already took one this morning)

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@Pathetic Call your doctor. That is terrible. You can get really hurt doing that. You should probably go to the hospital.

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Ummm most meds say if u skip or miss a dose to take an extra but no more no matter how many u miss! That is dangerous! U should call the doc

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@Justplaintired the doc will do nothing but yell at me, then send me to the ER to yell at me. then to the hospital to get no help

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And what if the overdose hurts your body somehow? Damages your liver? Kidneys etc? U need to call or go in please

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@Justplaintired my body parts already hate me. they probably are plannig for their malfunction.

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So now you're gonna make it easier for them to malfunction? Lol y give your body the satisfaction

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@Justplaintired hey, at least they would be happy, and that is what counts. I can’t be happy, so it would be of no use for me.

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I hope this doesn't come back to haunt u later

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@Justplaintired I sincerely hope for no more later. one less evil on thsi planet. and the people can rejoice over me being sleign

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That's not funny

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@Justplaintired no it isn’t, but that is exactly how I feel

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depending on your dosage most likely u will be ok but u still should tell your doc just in case not to mention your cavalier attitude about it is slightly disturbing

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@Justplaintired if it should come up, ill bring it up with the expressed fear of being locked up (which does nothing to help these situations). I just no longer want to live with the pain I have. and since nobody cares, my death would not matter in the slightest. they all have better friends that replaced me, even after spending upto $5000 total on them.

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I can understand as I live in daily constant pain myself..... But giving up isn't the answer. And the ppl who say they're your friends obviously aren't u need a better quality of friends. I understand being afraid of being locked up but if u tell them it was an accident and u have no desire to die they tend to not lock u up