Well I was doing so well, with managing not to gamble and then I ended up gambling away my entire paycheck and having to pawn some items in order to make ends meet. I feel so disappointed in myself, but I have to realize that relapse is a part of recovery and I can't expect to be perfect (although I really wish I could ;) It just seems that I always mess up when things start going well for me.
I know exactly how you feel. I have been doing well over the last few months and ended up going to the casino last Saturday. It is disappointing. I had worked to get into a good place and was building up my savings again and paying off some debt. Now, I have to start all over again. Thanks for sharing and for helping me to realize that part of the healing process is making mistakes. I wish us both more strength and determination this time.
Yep, had my first downfall yesterday!!! I can not seem to meet anyone in my community to contact for help!! I live in Ashtabula County Ohio if you know anyone from this area please let me know???? Thanks
What part of Ohio is that? Is that anywhere near Cleveland?