well I am lost !!!!!!!!!! I have been battling crack addiction for 20 years. with some clean time 5 years...only to start using again when my son turned 18...we had terrible fights and I am just tired I have been telling him and my mom I feel like they would be better off with out me so I cant cause them more pain over and over again....but now my son is gone I found out on facebook last week he was found dead in motel......so I buried my only child.............someone gave him a birthday gift which was heroin so they said and it was fentynol he laid there dead 3 hours before the girl called 911. he has a 1 year old and 2 weeks ago twins.....I just keep walking in circles asking god why didn't he take me
Hi Suzy,
I can see that you have gone through a lot and I am sorry for your loss. Have you ever considered going into a treatment center or seeing a therapist to help you with your addiction? I know that you've gone through something very tough right now, but maybe this is the time to start looking for a change. Give your self time to heal and to work through your emotions. You are taking the right steps in trying to seek out help. There is hope for you, you are not alone, we are here for you.
Hugs,
K.G.
I too am so sorry to hear of your loss. I can't imagine the pain of losing a child. I agree with KG that now would be a good time to seek help. Both addiction and grief counseling. There is nothing to be gained by you losing your life as well. I'll send up a prayer for you and your son. God Bless.