My sleep is affected by events in my life, and now its even more affected. I already get barely enough sleep to function and now I don't feel like doing much. Break down at school (well needed one) and now too many people are leaving. Mum died a few months back, teacher at school left now friend left. *sigh* Now I see why I didn't try and make friends, them leaving was always there and few I actually trusted. Now I dun feel like doing things as much, everything is slowly break down and boiling over, I'm not sure if I can handle this anymore, too much shock from every direction.
aimeemay, so sorry hun. i to have had sleep issues for years and yes events on our life sure don't help. i know how bad lack of sleep effects our daily lifes never mind when we have significant loses like you have had. i also understand "to much shock from every direction" with in 3 months mom comitted suicide, daddy died and my illness kicked into high gear. my shock also had taken on a feeling like yours as well as the feeling the i was going to simultaniously combust at any moment. i'm so sorry hun that you are going thru so much. know that we are here. let us know how things progress or if there is anything we can do for you in the meantime...your not alone hun
I feel I should get back my old mind, which is block out people and forget things ever happened, it saved me before from many things, and well its there if I ever want it in use again.
hopefully hun as time passes your mind will allow you to mourn as your able....again hun i really am sorry and will be here if you need to chat. any plans for today?
None at all, hardly have any ever. They're random, like my moods have been lately.
well sweetheart, hung out on here and with the hubby watching god shows as it is easter and so we start another week. whats happening with your week...work, school?
School, yeah. Haircuts at school, beauty school haha. No work, hard to find and keeping my thoughts in check.
well we are here sweetheart for you let us know how your week goes or if we can help you keeping them thoughts in check.
I would love help in my thoughts in check, cause I'm a bit self desctructive. Not something I'm proud of but now my cousin knows somewhat about what runs in my head, and hopes I don't go off the deep end, I wish so I don't try that.
Man, stability is getting better now, but then I'm bothered by my past. He liked my curls...I dun want them really anyhow.