Welp, I screwed up last night. Major binge/purge fiasco--st

Mental Health Eating Disorders & Body Dysmorphia
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Welp, I screwed up last night. Major binge/purge fiasco--stocked up on tons of food and totally went nuts. Now I feel horrid. But slightly hopeful after coming here and reading/responding to some posts. I'm just scared that I'll set myself up the same way I did last night. I even wrote down and analyzed each thing that set me up: 1. waiting too long to eat, 2. not eating enough when I did eat (choosing "too" safe foods), and 3. letting that voice tell me it's no big deal just to give in "a little"--no such thing as a little. If i start b/p cycle I stay in it until I'm absolutely beat and then fall asleep. There are more but I don't want to write a novel on here.

Any tips for getting back on track after slipping? I'm trying to not guilt and shame myself because I know self love is more powerful and self hate will only fuel my ED...but it's hard. I feel like I suck at recovery.

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I really think that back sliding is almost normal. It's a learning progress. Without the occasional slip, we can't know what triggers we have. Not saying that we should be ok when we screw up...as long as we can learn something from it. Easier said than done I know. Just know, you aren't alone

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Hey RavenCat, I'm right there with you! Today is my first day of recovery, and I'm trying to be as optimistic as possible but it's hard to be when I'm trying not to listen to the lie that I'm a bulimic. I refuse to have this addiction define, but I base my identity a lot on my actions, my successes, my work, etc. I want to change and I think I need to change the way I view myself! Let's fight together-message me whenever, ok? :)