I'm new to this website. I've known that I love women since I was really young but I've always denied it. I've always even avoided having friendships with other women for fear of falling in love ( happened before and was devastating). I'm married and I have a wonderful therapist who wasn't fooled by me. The thing is, I've never really talked to anyone about my feelings except the therapist and I can't imagine talking to just anyone about all this. She has encouraged me to find support from other lesbians but I don't have a clue as to how to do this. I feel so isolated! It's not that I don't like men or have even loved them but the feelings I've had for men aren't nearly as intense as I feel for women. I'm always afraid and self sabotage before I can really do anything about this. I feel like I'm so "different" from other women. I'll find myself attracted and gazing a little too long and feel immediately ashamed! If someone could help me out I would appreciate it. Has anyone else been through this? I hope I'm not whining! Thanks.
Ellfaba, its ok to wonder what if? We are all in need of Hope along with the understaning of who we are. Love is understanding one another and allowing ones fears to be placed aside from what people might think of others.
Smile and have a good time with the true feeling that are with in you.
Have a good time with those around you and allow yourself to have fun.
Take care and hope to hear from you soon.
juny
I went through the same thing in my teens, and finally tried being with a woman when I was 21. At first it was hard to accept myself, but after a few breakups and learning some valuable lessons about life, I finally came to terms with how I felt about other women. I am happy now, although just went through a break up. The first step is exactly what you are doing. WE have all been there. Anything you need, I am here.
Thank you for being so sweet lifesjourney and juny. I'm apprehensive but I also know (for once) that I am on the right track. I wish I had been braver when I was younger but I'm glad that I've gone through what I have. I was brave enough to go on some dates when I was in my 20's but I never met anyone that I had the spark with (I answered some personal ads). Thank you so much! This has been a lifesaver.