I can make it through breakfast, snack, and lunch but by the time I get to dinner I feel like I always end up eating a big meal. Even when I'm not hungry. Is there such as a thing as obsessive compulsive eating, where you feel like you must finish everything, or you feel uncomfortable having leftovers around?
Emmaline...eating disorders are confusing and complex, and the reasons that anyone engages in the disordered eating are numerous. Please seek professional help. Your inability to control your eating is likely an emotional response that should be examined.
It sounds as if you are more fearful of having food around...is it because you fear you may binge on it? Something to think about...please seek some help.
Take care...Jan ♥
I think it is because I'm afraid I'll binge on it. I don't like having temptations around, I would rather avoid them altogether.
Hey Emmaline,
try to recognize what you think and how you feel before those urges to (over)eat occur.
as well, ask yourself: is it really a big meal or do you just think that?
I read back on your last entries to get an idea of your background. have you looked into therapy or a group? this is really not something you should deal with by yourself, actually it's something nobosy CAN deal with by themselves.
how have you been since you joined here?
I really don't know how to look into therapy. I don't really want my family knowing anything about this, which sounds dumb I know, but I don't want to make a big fuss to them because food is already a difficult subject in my family. Nearly everyone in my family is obese except for me, and many of them have tried different methods of losing weight, but it always seems to creep back. I've tried to get my family to change but I can't force them. They have to make that decision themselves.
I'd hoped this online support group would be of help, and it has been. I just need to stick with it. I need something to keep be rooted firmly to the ground when life gets stressful.
I can see where you're coming from and you're right your family has to make decisions for themselves. but so do you have to look after yourself!
and it seems to me that there is more going on than using food for comfort at times. but same here, you have to find what's right for you and i'm glad you found this site. i do hope it will give you a lot of strength on your way to figure all this out.
love
maedi