People always tell me that the urge to self harm will decrease and the whole process of recovery will get easier, well it's been since like oct/nov when I started this recovery and I don't find it getting any easier or I don't find the urge decreasing at all, I don't know how or where I am finding this strength but I have been able to fight the urge but it's just so hard, I am just not sure how much I can keep finding the strength and getting frusterating cuz I am not finding this any easier yet and I feel like I am loosing hope. I know no one can answer when this will get easier but I did need to vent my feelings, have anyone lost hope and strength? And if so what did you do to get in back? Well one this help me get the hope and strength back is encouragement and love from all my friends on here! The more support and love I get the more strength and hope I get back so I am putting in all my support groups.
hello,
you may need different medications. Hell i was a science project for a long time. So make sure and tell your doctor.
And don't hurt yourself as you know it doesn't last anyway. Just a different type of pain.
I lose hope sometimes, but i refuse to quit. find something simple that you like to do and do it. then a little harder and so on. That way you'll have something else to think about. Don't start with hard stuff you'll get frustrated and quit, i've done that one. do anything positive it can help.
Don't bare your sole to your friends as they have no clue what to do or how to react. Doctor, therapist, here. You have to be there before you can understand.
So take care and do something you like and have fun with it.
yes princess, i hear you. i loose hope too sometimes. but i remember what i was told. no one said it was going to be easy. simple maybe but it is very difficult sometimes. when i loose hope i remembet to have faith. faith in my support group all of you and the good things you tell me. my meds, (and yes please check with your doctor and let him/her know how hard it is for you right now) faith in my Higher Power God who loves me I know this even if i don't feel it, faith in my program whatever that may be for oneself. and faith in my progress. look how far youve come. since last fall you say? congratulations! way to go princess! have faith and hope will come back. all my best and i have faith and hope in you and for you when you are finding it difficult as we all do for you. your humble prayer warrior.
I know this is not totally the same, but it took me a year and a half of regular therapy before I started seeing improvement with my Bulimia. And now, I am in awe of how far I have come since I started. Its so important to hang in there. When you are in pain, I understand that waiting for relieve is extremely hard. But you WILL get better. And you will be so much stronger for it!
I went through a period in my life where I felt as though physical pain would be far better than the emotional pain that I was forced to endure. It just seemed that nothing got better, it was just one disaster after another. But, I overcame this terrible period in my life. I depended on my faith to get me through the pain. I also had to change the way that I approached life. I had to force myself to stop becoming a victim. I was and still am a very meek person. I had to learn that everything that people said to me was not intentionally meant to hurt me. It is always the best to seek professional help if you feel that you are at a breaking point. I think that just about every human being on this planet reaches a point when they feel like they cannot endure anymore. I feel like it is important to understand that you are normal in that you are going through a low period in your life. These low periods help to teach us about ourselves and help us to learn what is really important in our lives. Find a hobby, something just for you. You are special, and you deserve to feel special.
Princess....do you know what the urge is truly about? Such as, are you truly wanting to feel pain, or hurt yourself? Or is it about some type of emotional release?
Is there some way that you can make a list of other ways to achieve what you think self-harm will give you....not hurting yourself, but actually reverse it and instead of doing harm, deliberately do something nice for yourself, something soothing, etc.
Self-harm has a deeper meaning, usually people are trying to communicate something to others with this behavior. And the truth is, it's a very primitive way to communicate! Can you think about what it is you want others to know, and actually talk to them, tell others how you are feeling, and then act in a way that nurtures you? I hope you will consider this. Thinking of you.....Jan ♥
Stanisz, yah no one said it would be easy but people have told me it would get easier, yes it is very difficult. Thanks for reminding me about having faith. My therapist knows how hard it is for me and my psychiatrist knows about self harm but doesn't know how hard it is and my doctor doesn't know and I don't ever plan on telling him. Yah I try to look at how far I came but sometimes that's hard to do but it helps to be reminded.
Iamcj thanks for sharing how long it took you to see improvement, I think I tend to have to high expectations, I feel like I should be further along then I am and sometimes it's just gets so hard, that I just wish I could speed up the recovery.
Tak45, thanks for sharing what you have been through, I do have a therapist so I am getting help and but all this effort that I am doing is all me but I defienlty can't do this alone, I need my therapist and support, and all my friends on here.
Janurse, you have a very points and questions that I have to think about and I will consider all of them. I know for sure I don't really want to hurt my self. It's more about a emotional release that I get when I self harm, I have other reason I self harm but I would say that is the main one. Thanks for your very good points and questions and I said I will think and consider all of them.
Thanks again all of you for being there, for your support and encouragement and kind words and as I always I appreciate it so much and it means a lot to me. All of you have helped me get the hope back and start having faith so thanks so much again, love you all!