When I'm not travelling good

[21681kimz]

When I am travelling well I sometimes start to believe I don't need my medication (this could be the start of delusions of grandure), though in my logical times I know - I definately do.

Then I may start to think I don't want to go to my doctor's or Psych appt. Then before I know it I am mentally not good, so I try to make a urgent Psych appt.

But as I missed an appointment the doctor/psych will not make an urgent appointment for me. The thing that actually surprises me is that, being bipolar, if I miss an appointment or begin to let important things slide then it is a sign that I am on dangerous ground and I am heading into a episode.

I guess my point is that even people how are qualified in the mental health field can even not see my mental state for what it is.

This was just something that had happened a few months ago but I felt like sharing it.

[Jassy]

I know what you mean. I always have assignments from my doctors like writing in a journal or what not but I've let that slide recently due to my meds not working properly. I am really tempted to just not take them because it seems like it won't make a difference. I still am though, hoping that they can at least stop me from acting on my horrible thoughts. Maybe try another doctor? It makes sense-we seem to disappear for a little while..somethings not right with our mood balance. They should be able to take note of your behavior.