When the one you thought would never hurt you, your prince charming and your perfect marriage, is not what you thought it was… You lose control over life; truth is we never had it. You can not control what others do. I lost control of life; I wanted to get a hold of something to be able to feel like I had control again. I went down to 94lbs. Just for the reason to feel like I had control of something, that feeling of what I put in my mouth, I was in control of something again. My doctor said, it was a slow suicide. That made since to me, because I did not want to live anymore. Sometimes we have to hit rock bottom to be able to pull our self’s back up. There is NO greater pain then when the love of your life hurts you. Again, we can not control them; we can only learn that we never had that control in the first place…
Hi i havent spoken to you in awhile. Im sad to hear what you have been suffering through. I hope that you are on the road to recovery now.
@housemushroom hi haven’t been on here in a while, havnt needed to… coming up on 1 yr from dday and doing a lot of looking back… thinking its a wonder anyone can make it out of this… been through a lot over this last yr. He is strong and we are a rock now… my head still looks back from time to time… I know we are good and will make it, I trust him again. Looking at me more now and how it changes a person…
I hope time has helped you heal. The first months after D day is unbearable. Only one way to go from the bottom... Up
@SurrealAsItGets I think It was him who helped the most, he would say time will heal then one day he stopped saying that and said " I did this to you I will do whatever it takes to help you heal" That was when I think I started to heal. Was doing good, but looking back is a killer…