Who am i

Mental Health Mental & Physical Abuse
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I'm an adoptee who's been through so much in my 46 yrs. I have a knack for migrating to unhealthy people sInce I was abandoned as a baby. I was bullied by my adoptive brother, verbally and emotionally abused by my adoptive father, sexually abused by a clergy member at a catholic h.s. Then I ended up in a christian cult for 10yrs. I recently told the leaders that I disagreed with their bizarre teachings and could no longer associate with them. The person I wrote to did not accept my serious concerns and became sarcastic and mean spiritted towards me. I don't care anymore, I need to be away from people who burn bibles, baptize satan and encourage sin. It is so bizarre that I thought these people had special revelations and loooked up to them. I am now in a healthy church that teaches the truth with love and has accountability. I was also kicked out of a crack cocaine support group recently for sticking up for a friend. That support group claimed to be "christian" and again I found myself in another "cult."

I feel like I've been bullied my whole life. I, in turn, did some bullying because I was so insecure and hated myself. That has stopped. I have repented and have been in counseling for over 10 yrs. I don't ever want to be mean to anyone and just want to be kind and be able to discern right from wrong. It scares me that those type of groups claimed to be "christian" when all they did was drag the name of Jesus down and lift themselves up. I just want peace and healing and to be away from cults and unhealthy people.

Thanks for listening.

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wow learning to trust.....quite the life story, i'm so glad that you have shared this with us. there are many out in the world in the name of god, jesus, christianity that are very mislead are'nt they. i'm glad for you that you have found this group. we have many here that are very close to jesus. and some not. and many inbetween. i hope you continue to stay with us and discern for yourself. there are wonderful people here of various religeous beacrounds.and some that don't. as you get to know some of the folks on the site, you'll find that you will gravitate to those that have something you want and others will gravitate to you as you have something they want (spiritually speaking) let me pass on my most heartleft deepest sympathies on behalf of those that did mistreat you in the name of god. i hope that you will find acceptance from a whole variety of people in our community. there may be other groups if you look down the list that you may find of some benefit to you. i came for one reason and stayed for many. if i can of any help or assistance in anyway please call on me. all i have is my experiences to share and they are open to you if you thing they can be of help in your journey to wholeness. looking forward to hearing from you at your leisure and time frame. god bless you baby.....your onto something here.....there is lots of love and suppport to be had. the more groups that you join and post, the more support you'll be given in return.