i have always been diffrent, always an outsider, esspecialy in my own family, i have never felt right, even in my own head... its like the guy off of "scrubs" who has a vioce inside his head talking to himself, well times that by 5 and thats how my brain works on a daily basis, its hard enough to just focus on my own voice, let alone going through out the day, working and such, the voices never let me tell and one b4 now. but im not afraid anymore, i hit my breaking point a few nights ago when i was trying to talk to my bf, and all i could hear was the voices and not mine, ive been living with it for so long, years... im living one day at a time now, and when i dont feel safe, or i dont trust myself, i talk to my bf about it, or i call one of my doctors. i thank you all for listening, and i will keep you posted.
hey shavonn, my daughter has bipolar and has mentioned the voices in her head. this started when she was about 15. at least thats when she tould me about them. she is still not a well woman as she is now 23 and not with any doctor or taking any meds for her condition. are you on meds honey? i'll assume so since you mentioned calling your doctors. hhmm wondering if a med check would be in order as to help the voices go elsewhere?
Hello Shavonn, my neice hears those voices too and it's so hard on her. I know she felt like she didn't fit in all her life as well. I'm so glad she told us all now what was going on as it explains so much of the things she would do and say. I'm so glad you have someone to talk to about this and that you have doctors taking care of you. What you have is a really sucky illness that you didn't do anything to deserve. My neice also self harms. She is coming to live with me later this summer so she can begin college in the fall!! Her being able to go to college would have been out of the question before they found the right med combo's. I can tell you that she is such an awesome young lady. When she comes here I will show her this site and she may decide to join and that would be soooo good for her! If she joins, I will have her look you up, if that's ok?
We've talked before Shavonn and I think you are a really awesome person and I love hearing from you so please keep posting!! I"ve had to be absent for the most part on the boards lately so it's been literally taking me like 3 or 4 days to respond!!
Hope you are doing well today, Suzee
dear Shavron, my son hears voices and i know alot of people who suffer from this curse in their life. the meds help quiet this down alot and make it bearable for him and others. some meds work better that others and for some people. and in different combination. but it can take months if not a year or two and you have to keep trying and working with your p-doc and do not give up no matter what. keep going back to the doc and telling him or her your symptoms. tell your bf what is going on with you and ask for your family support. hopefully they will be behind you and understand. ask people to repeat themselves several times so you can get it when they are trying to convey special information in case the voices are interfering with your communication process these things have worked with my son and little by little he has greater periods of wellness. i will keep you in my prayers Shavron and my heart goes out to you.
all my best with faith, hope and loving kindness, a prayer friend
I experienced both auditory and visual hallucinations and I didn't want to admit to myself I had schizophrenia. I eventually reached the point where I realized I needed help.
I started taking medication and it has greatly improved my life. I no longer have hallucinations and for the most part I can enjoy life. Have you considered taking any medication? If you find the right med and the right dose it can greatly help. The only downside is sometimes the medication doesn't always work on certain individuals but it's worth a try I think.
I can only recommend you try some medication to get rid of the voices. I am on Zyprexa and it has worked wonders for me. I hope you get better soon :-)
Edit: Oops, I see I already responded to your post, lol
thank you everyone for all of your support! ive never had this many people care about me in all my life, its so nice, yes i am on meds.. mrjc99 i was first put on that zyprexa but my nightmares extremed! so now im on a diffrent kind, 6mg... who knew 6mg would change my head so much! the voices are more like statick , like on the radio you can still hear the song but its fuzzy, so i can hear my thoughts loud and clear, and the voices are the static, ya know? ive been feeling good up until this weekend, i wont go into great detail cuz it is a long story, but me and my bf broke up, and i thought about just killing myself, there was the bottle of meds in my hand and alcohol in the other.. i didnt. b4 i would have done it without thinking, cuz after all my bf was the one who told me to get help in the first place,, i feel more depressed now that ever, and cops were involved... like i said its a long story. :-(
I was originally on 40 mg of Zyprexa which is a very high dose. My doctor told me I could drop down to 30 mg if I quit smoking. I eventually did quit smoking and am doing well on 30mg. I'm just glad that I found a medication that helps.
It's nice to hear your medication is helping even if it isn't a perfect solution. Sometimes it takes a few months of trying different meds before you find the one that works best.
Sorry to hear you broke up with your bf. I know it can be depressing but that usually passes after a while.
You said you have a long story. I created a website and I invite you to come on over and share your experience with schizophrenia. My website is http://www.schizophreniaforums.com
I hope you feel better soon :-)
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