All I have ever wanted is to be loved. Why doesn't anyone love me. Why does everyone leave? I don't know my dad my mom dumped me on my grandparent when I was 4 then they left when I was 13 and I went back to my mom ( a stranger and alcoholic and newly remarried). That went well. I have no friends. Every boyfriend cheated on me including my first husband and now my current husband abuses the crap out of me. Mostly verbal and mental I have lost track of the black eyes and bruses. What did I do to deserve this life. Why don't I deserve to be loved. Truly loved. I so alone and I can't take it any more. The only things that keeps me gong is I'm a mom and I have no choice my babies have only me. But I have no one.
You do have love, like you said the inputting that motivates you is your children, you are the beacon of hope for them. The only reason for them to live. What would happen to your children if you left them? Would you like your kids to grow up like you did? If you won't do it for yourself, do it for them
I don't want my babies to ever feel like this. I will NEVER leave them but living for them isn't enough. It's just not. How can I give them what they need when I don't get what I need? And I have no idea why. What am I doing wrong? What did I do to deserve this? I've made my mistakes but so does everyone... right? Am I really a bad person? I never thought so but now I don't know. There must be a reason no one stays.
I just wish there was one person who thought I was good enough even with my faults. I thought was my husband but he is so cruel. It's almost better being alone then with him.
I'm sinking but I want to swim, I just don't know how. And there is no one to toss me a life preserver.
I don't want to be alone anymore but there is nothing I can do to change it.
I've been feeling that way lately too. All the friends I've had are jerks they just act terribly even when I treat them nicely. I've felt that way what have I done to deserve this life. Why have they been so mean and why don't I deserve to be loved. I haven't really come up with an answer. Except maybe don't depend on others to make you happy. If you feel your a good person that's what should count. I know that's hard when you feel others are not treating you with the respect you deserve. When I say this do not stay in an abusive relationship show yourself respect and leave there are other people out there. You don't need to be there being torn down. Possibly, look into joining a group of mothers that have children your age or a group of people who have the same interest. Maybe being part of the group will give you some people to interact with and be there for you.