I am 20 years old and since I can remember I've worried every second of the day. I 24 hours a day about things most people don't even think twice about. It's the worst feeling in the world and I feel so alone like noone understands me. My friends, boyfriend and even family make jokes about me, call me a buzz kill and get mad at me just for beig myself. They don't understand that I can't help it and if I could I definitely would. I hate worrying and i am fully aware that the things I worry about are irrational and dumb and as much as I try to tell myself that I can't. My worrying and anxiety is ruining my life. I quit a great college after one semester because I couldn't handle the possibilty of failing. I worry about my family dying constantly and I hate hanging out with people outside of my normal group of friends. I avoid anything with the possibility of a bad outcome. I haven't been to the doctors in years because I'm convinced I will find out I'm terminally ill. I'm driving away my friends and family because of my constant need to control and protect everyone. I live with the constant fear that if something bad can happen it WILL happen. This is ruining my life and I don't know where to turn. I have never spoken with my doctor about this because it's embaressing. When I say the things that I worry about out loud I sound foolish and rediculous. I feel so alone and I just wish I could stop the constant voice telling me everything is going to go wrong. I hate this more than anything and I just wish there was something I could do to make everyone understand that I can't help the way I am. I don't know much abou OCD and it wasn't until my aunt who suffers from OCD suggested I see a doctor about it that I even considered it a possibility.
OCD is considered to be an anxiety disorder, so regardless if you have obsessive compulsive disorder or another type of anxiety disorder you would definitely benefit from discussing this with your doctor and getting a referral for a consultation with a psychiatrist who will be able to better identify your condition. Medication and therapy can bring great relief. There is no need for you to suffer. Do not be embarrassed. A good doctor wants his/her patients to be happy and healthy. The best thing you can do for yourself is to step up and get the help you need. You are not alone.
I just wanted to say that I can really relate to you- I worry all day long about everything you can think of- it's a never-ending nightmare- all I can really do is try to remind myself to stay in the present moment because that's all that really matters and to remind myself that I am strong enough to handle whatever comes my way- but it's a lot easier said than done! Hang in there!
I know exactly what you mean.
Mariefoppia
Oh man do I know how you feel! I am the same way. I am always worrying. I feel like if I don't worry aobut something then it might come true... but then if I worry about it then I get sick to my stomach and can't stop thinking what will happen if it does come true. I can really relate to you. Sadly, I don't know what advice I can give you because I am trying to stop doing it myself. I went to a therapist a while ago and she told me "just stop" she said there is nothing else I can do besides just stop thinking about it. Needless to say I don't go to her anymore.
I am sorry to hear that you are going through this becuase I know how you feel and it is no way to live. I bought a book called "Brain Lock", it is supposed to be very good and I will let you know.
I hope you are doing well.
It's good to know I'm not alone beause for so long I have felt that way. I am going to look into that book definitely! Thanks
I TOTALLY understand what you going through! All the what ifs? They have consumed me to being homebound, but if ur not on medication would deff go to my doc and tell them what's going on, you will be surprised what they can do to help you....just don't make the same mistake I did and stayed on medications to long and then got immune and then they no longer work for me, I got out more when I was ur age but now I'm 32 and it has gotten 1000x worse!
Hi Mariefoppia, I hope you can see or get a referral to a therapist and/or psychiatrist to diagnose you properly. At just 20 it will be good to get this under control sooner rather than later. Hopefully you will be given medication and/or behavior modification techniques to control your thoughts to live a happier healthier life.
As a 20-year sufferer of OCD I am here to talk. I look forward to hearing from you!
I'm exactly the same but refuse to go to my GP since I can't go on my own due to some reasons