I have recently been diagnosed with bipolar.I dont fell like myself anymore.i lost my wife in 08 my dad in 09.People have told me that my girlfriend is going to throw me out.After her tahoe is payed for.Im paranoid all the time my moods just change so fast.I just wanna give up im tiered.
dont give up. I am so sorry for the tragic things you have had to deal with these past few years. Being bipolar on top of it seems like way more than one person should have to handle. I hope you're finding support here. Everyone here has these horrible things we have to deal with. Don't give up. You can do this.
Bipolar??? It is possible that you may have been missed diagnosed. You sound more like you are suffering from Major Depression, which mimics Bipolar Disorder closely.
Any way. Regardless of what they say you have, you need to do things that will help you.
If you have reliable sources telling you that your girlfriend is going to throw you out, then listen to them. Be proactive. Talk to her. Find out if there is something that you can change or fix in the relationship. If not, then don't wait for her to eventually to dump you. Just break up with her now.
It also sounds like you have not been able to find a way to overcome the deaths in your past. A therapist would be an excellent way to work on this. Also, support groups in your area will be really helpful. Yes, this site has its advantages, but being a part of local support group that you can physically attend has some MAJOR benefits. You can actively engage with other people and share with them.
Good luck.
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