So Im about to get married and I guess I have some deep seeded issues with addiction. I dont drink all the time but I have had my moments. I rarely drink during the week but I did last night and i guess I have had one too many apologies. Now I dont know what to do. I dont want to go to AA i think it is not for me. I am poor so what is my option to show her that I am working to move forward here. I am really confused. Im sad and confused because im hurting people and I dont mean to. what to do : (
You already made a good first step by coming here. You have got to want to quit drinking because you know it is the right thing to do for yourself. Do you know why you drank so much the other night? Is it the pressures from your upcoming marriage? I am not a member of AA, but maybe you should seriously consider going to some meetings. Even if you "think" it is not for you. Don't let your drinking go so far that you do drink all the time. It will be much harder to quit then. Try and find the stength within you to do this. It is there. You just need to find it and come to terms with it. And make sure you find the time to stop by here and tell us how you are feeling and what you are thinking. People are here to help you.