I just wanted to let you know ill be leaving next week and i will be probably unable to post for a while...
For those of you who remember from previous posts. I was born in Australia and when i was 10 my parents decided to move back to Cyprus ( a little island in the mediteranean near Greece). As much as i love my little island, Australia is always in my heart and I still have a lot of family in Oz (big greek family :) :) ). I am going back to see my grandparents who havent been very well (old age) and to attend a cousins wedding. Im going on my own, my husband cant come because of work. Im abit nervous about doing it on my own, nobody there knows except one of my Aunts. My husband, my two friends and the proffesionals here have been a great support through this time, ive allowed myself to lean on them alot and i am a bit nervous about leaving them all behind, even if it is just for 2-3 weeks, especially my wonderful husband. I feel i will be a world away (literaly if you look at the map :) )It is however a step i finally feel is time i take. I want to do this...
Ive been planning and then canceling and then planning and then cancelling again for a while now. I finally decided to go for it. These past 12 months since i started recovery have been quite a rollercoaster and now finally starting to regain my confidence and feeling stronger i feel ready to make such a long trip on my own. I need to get away from here and from everything for a while anyway, i know going away doesnt really erase the past, or change the present, more like puts things on hold, but i am not seeing it that way, im not running away, i just feel the change will do me good and maybe allow my mind to forget and be free of things for a while, just take a break... It wont be for that long, im back end of August.
Ive been very busy these days with work, trying to wrap things up and tie any loose ends before i go, which is why i have been unable to post much. I also saw my therapist and discussed it with her too, i feel ready, she feels i am ready to and that made me feel good. Ive got a meeting with my nutritionist on Monday before i go to look over my meal plans and try to make them as easy to follow as possible and come up with action plans for the overall holiday. I will be staying with family and they have no idea of whats been going on and i have no intention of telling them.
I am missing you already. I will be sorry to see you go for such a long time but i think you are going to have a great time in Australia. I hear nothing but good things about Australia. BTW, does that mean you have an ****** accent??
I am glad that you are meeting up with your nutritionist before hand and it sounds great to have that vote of confidence from your therapist. Cool.
Keep in mind all the progress you have made and if you ever need some support, please pop back in and let us know.
We all need a change of environment sometimes. If only to help us appreciate home and family and friends all the more.
How exciting!! ♥ I've never been to Australia, though it's near the top of my list of places I'd love to visit. :) I'm so happy for you, friend! It sounds like a wonderful adventure, and sooo great for you to spend time with family! :) Stay focused, and as Sreb said, pop in if ever you need us. We'll be here. ♥
Oh and yes, i do still have a bit of my ****** accent! :) :)
Its just before midnight and i just got home. I was working till pretty late tonight. So much to do....
I did manage to have my dinner though. Im very tired and off to bed. By the time i leave i think im gonna be exhausted...maybe thats not such a bad thing as hopefully i will be so tired i will sleep as soon as i get on the plane all the way to OZ!!!! I cant really sleep when im flying and im a bit worried about how im gonna get through such a VERY long flight, any ideas???
I have to get myself organised this weekend before the trip, make plans for some things that need to be done while im away, get my winter clothes out again (its winter there, but its summer where i am now) have so much to do, and i want to make sure i spend as much time with my hubby as possible because im really going to miss him!!!!!
So much to do! So much to do! Nervous but very excited aswell :)
Hmmmmm. That's probably one reason i expect never to make it to Australia. I hate long flights. For me, the only way is movie, movie and more movies since i am also unable to sleep on planes.
Crosswords/brainteasers/puzzles. Wish i could offer you more suggestions.
Thanks Jan! Im in the process of packing atm. Last night in my excitement i took all my winter clothes down and piled them in the other room. Now im standing in front of a mountain of warm winter cothes trying to figure out what to take in the meantime im sweating like crazy because its so hot here. The contrast made me laugh! On the other hand looking at all the clothes kind of gave me an uneasy feeling. Last time i wore alot of this i was in the low parts of ed/recovery, plus i was fluctuating alot in my weight...some dont fit, some are too big. Never saw that coming....
I was considering to start trying them on to see what fits and what not, but then i decided that may turn the uneasy feeling into something more than just that. Took a deep breath and im going by eye. What i like and i think may be ok, i take...the rest goes into a big bag to be put away or given away... I guess i was gonna have to go through this sooner or later, may as well be now combined with something that makes me excited and happy (the trip). That way i can clear out the clothes and sort them out but link the whole process to the trip, focus on that rather than the past.
Anyway, gotto get back to things. Still have some washing to do and ironing along with the packing.