Here I am, this time with another bad night of anxiety. I placed this one under substance abuse because even though I’m not an alcoholic, I have a troubled relationship with drinking.
I think I was indeed an alcoholic when I was much younger. Now I don’t drink as much, but the fear I have is that when I start drinking I cannot stop. Whst that does is that for the most part I drink very little. I normally buy 2× 330 ml bottles of beer for the weekend and can drink them either on saturday or most often than not sat and sunday.
Although I’m ok with alcohol I would love to stop drinking. I spend months under control, then one night I go out and can’t control myself.
Here I am. Tuesday at 4:45 am. Awake since 2:00 am. With work the next day. This will be a shitty day.
I need to up my game and take action. Become more active and a better person.
I had last night 4× beer cans of 330 ml. I’m not hungover. I did not do anything stupid. Had a good night. But my anxiety is not letting me sleep. The disappointment on myself is not letting me sleep.
Thankd for reading.
Hi JayCoast,
I understand that anxiety does not let people sleep. I suffer from it as well sometimes. I am also a former retail sales associate and I do understand being awke late but still having to go to work the next day. Have you tried drinking any of the adaptagonic drinks like Moment, Juni, etc. Both of these companies offer alternatives to alcohol that taste great. Please don’t be disappointed in yourself. A friend once told me last year that our imperfections make us human.
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Thanks a lot for the advice. I live in Scandinavia, so Im not sure I can find those alternatives here, but there are other non-alcoholic alternatives. I’m normally very good with limiting myself. I drink to a limit. I cannot have more than 2 beers if I drink and I normally stick to it. Every so often, let’s say around 4 to 6 months. There is a day in which younare happier than usual. I don’t know what is it, but I just say f… it and do as much as I want.
I started a new job that is proving to be very very stressful. I think that is messing with my rythm too, but I cannot leave my job. I don’t want to leave my job. This is multiplying my anxiety x10. I posted this 10 days ago and just had another post like this one a yesterday. So this is not happening every 6 months or so.
Thank you for reading and writing.