Am I expecting too much

Mental Health Eating Disorders & Body Dysmorphia
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Lately I've just been so frustrated...I don't know if it's cause I've been wanting recovery and have had just a few days in the past few months where I actually thought it might be possible that I could not binge again.

But I'm struggling to find the help and support that I feel like I need. I don't know if I'm just expecting too much from myself, others, or being impatient with the process of recovery?

I'm just feeling confused about what it is I'm suppose to be doing right now in terms of steps to recovery...I dont' really know what I need.

I feel like I bounce from person to person, in terms of talking and in hopes of getting help from them...like I've seen a couple therapists in the past for a couple months each but just wasn't feeling like I was getting what I needed, wanted, or expected from therapy. I've talked to a couple different people in my life about my ed and again....I do not have a strong relationship with them...and right now I'm currently talking to someone, but I feel like she doesnt' really want to help me until I give in and go back to therapy...but it just hasn't been helpful for me in the past, and I don't see why I should waste the money. I know, I keep getting told maybe I just haven't found the right therapist, but is it possible to recover from this without professional counseling, maybe it's not for me. Isn't that possible?

I guess I'm just wondering if I really just haven't found that right person to talk to, or if it's just me and my expectations? I'm struggling because I want support from some specific people in my life right now, but I'm too scared to tell them and not sure if I should...because it is a sensitive subject and it's not something to just be thrown around and I just want to be guarded and careful so I don't regret telling someone that I really should not have told. I'm scared I'll say something to someone I cannot take back and that it will therefore change our relationship forever...

Sorry just some thoughts...not sure if they really make much sense, since I did leave out some details...but I just needed to write it out and maybe someone else will have some advice or just similiar experience, thoughts, fears...

thanks for reading....

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Hey, I get where youre coming from. I'm not keen onthe idea of therapy either. I think its definitely possible to overcome this alone. I don't know your individual case or what triggers your eating. I have been binge eating for six months now and gained seven kilos with it. I think a big help in your recovery would be to talk to those you mentioned you're scared to talk to. It can be really hard to open up about this stuff
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You're probably afraid if judgmentxt what if they say something hurtful? I indeed that. I think hour need to decide whether you are ready to talk about it with them. If your are approach the subject carefully.

1. Do it in private where you can't be overheard.

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2. Tell them it is a sensitive issue that is hard for you to talk about
3. Ask them for support and love
4. Tell them you have an eating disorder, that you binge eat and you are struggling to overcome it.
5. Stress that its a serious disorder with horrible side effects such as depression, low self worth, health concerns (primarily weight gain), and anxiety
6. Say you want to change and they could help you, then tell them exactly how and what you are asking from them specifically
7. Ask for their confidentialityin this matter and if you like, a hug to emphasize that they are on your side.

this is how I would precede if I were you, you do not HAVE to tell them, its your choice.

I wish you all the best. Hope everything goes well for you.

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I concur. Without therapy is fine but you must tell those closest to you, in whatever form you can
God bless

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