I just realized after reading a post from someone else, that I have been staying up late after my fiancee goes to sleep to binge eat. I don't know why I didn't realize it before, but I guess that I talked myself into thinking that I just wasn't tired yet. I eat alot after he is in bed now that I think about it.
It did hurt me a few weeks ago when we were watching dancing with the stars and he asked me if I remember when I was skinney and we danced like that. Maybe that is why I started doing this. I don't know.
But, now that I am realize that I am doing this, I hope that I will break the habit.
i know you can break the habit it may take a while but it is worth it.
i feel your pain as it mirrors my own. i hide my eating from my spouse and my daughter and her friends. i love having days alone to just sit in the house and eat the foods that i know are not good or helpful for me.
one thing i started doing with help of my therapist is writing all of these feelings down whenever i feel them.
another thing that she has me doing is writing my feelings when i do eat. some of the time its so impossible to do, to write down if i'm happy or sad right before i eat but it agreed to do it just for this week. everytime i eat i write down what i'm thinking before i put anything in my mouth.
maybe this will help for you
also i know that helping my own binging/purging is to really speak my mind there are times when this is what i need to not feel like hurting myself.
maybe some of these things will help you? be well
I probably would do the same thing. You just have a lot on your mind about stuff. I've been eating a lot too in the evening but I think mine is more due to the drinking thing. I go to bed early normally but end up staying up late and pigging out if I've been drinking. Drink tea in the eve's and talk about the stuff that is messing with your head. Loves, Manic
Thanks browngirl and mani_--- I haven't stopped like I thought that I might. I just love the food. I have a new plan that I want to start following for exercise and eating right. It just takes extra $ to start buying the different things that I will need to start the correct eating program and right now I am strapped and trying to pay off other bills. ---Never ending circle ...