Hey its princess, this might not make sense but this is how I feel. I was wondering if anyone else have ever felt as if self injurt is controling you well that is how I feel, I just feel likes its controling me and its harder then ever to get the controle back and I just feel like I am not controling it, and that its controling me, but then I think how is it controling me cuz I have control over my own actions, but does or have anyone ever felt the same way I do or is that totally weird? It all starter when we had to put my dog down cuz she was sick and my parents wanted to wait a couple of months before we got another dog well its been very hard on me being dogless cuz my dog have helped me through alot when we had her and I am not afraid to admit that and now I dont have that so its been really hard and I have been self harming my self like everyday, where when I had my dog it was once every other week about, or once every week just depends on what was going on but I have never self injured this much. I do have some exciting news my parents are ready to get a dog and so we are getting one in August. So I am sooooo excited, and I think that will help me alot with my self injury at least I am really hoping so. Having a dog has helped me less in my self injury. I really want to feel I have controle over my self injury or better yet stop completely. Well if anyone have ever felt the same way please let me know, I think it will help to know that I am not the only one that has felt that way so I am hoping other people have felt that way too.
For a long time it was like self-harm was controlling me. I wanted to cut for no reason at all.
And they're such hard feelings to ignore but the pain is not worth it and neither are the scars.
I haven't cut since February and my body is still visibly scarred. I see people stare all the time and it hurts to remember where I was and at the same time proud to know I'm no longer there.
Try having hot/cold showers, going for walks and writing. Listen to music, draw or talk to a friend. There are alternate ways to heal your pain and I know how hard it can be to loose a pet too; so I'm sorry to hear about that. But your dog is always in your memories and you can visit it whenever you choose. Just because it's not physically there anymore doesn't mean its spirit is gone.
When you feel the need to self harm, break up your feelings. What has caused you to feel this way? Is it worth the pain? (By the way the answer is always NO). There is always an alternate.
Always.
Wishing you the best
-Paige