I feel horrible. I had a really bad binge today and I just feel stupid and worthless and I turned a good day into a horrible one...thanks again goes out to having an eating disorder. Hope everyone else has had a better day
Tommorow is a new day. Put the past where it belongs and start fresh tommorow :)
Sonrisas,
I'm sorry... I know that sucks... :0/
Just wondering... When you say you turned a good day into a horrible one... What made it "good"? Just thinking that when that used to happen to me... I usually meant that I had restricted all day and then "blew it"... Restricting does lead to bingeing, so I wondered...
I hope you can forgive yourself and remember that you're NOT stupid or worthless... The ED wants you to believe those things, but they're NOT true... ♥
Love,
Jen
Thanks guys!! Jen, i did restrict ...but i was having fun with friends and just enjoying the day. It's the first real day in a few weeks that i haven't been ill (flu) and I just felt good until the b&p episode. It's just sad that i was having fun and food didn't have to be involved until my friends decided to go out to eat where I ate a ton and then went home where my anxiety got the best of me :/
sonrisas…it sounds like there may have been several factors that led to your binge. Even so, learning how to express and regulate your emotions without using food is the ultimate goal. In the meantime, perhaps you can plan ahead and when you have factors that may sidetrack you, think about how to keep yourself safe. I hope you are feeling better…HUGS…Jan 
hey sonrisas ,
i know how that feels ... to have no idea what started it ... and with restrictions it really sucks ... if I eat i feel guilty and i binge ... If I restrict I binge ... If someone makes a bad joke about my food I say : he thinks I am fat pig and i binge ... all this bad thoughts we must throw away somehow ! and stop doing what ED s tells us ... to all of us !
im sorry sonrisas--but hey---tomorrow you can get on that horse again!!! yea!!!
and smile, sonrisas!!! LOL
love
maureen
Hahahahaha Maureen you are adorable!! Thanks for the support everyone I have been feeling better and hearing your responses and just the fact that you care enough to do so makes me feel better. This site has done so much for me already. Thank you all so much for helping me through a difficult week ( I was also pretty sick this week to add to all the fun). So thanks and Jan, SUPER HUGS and Maureen SMILESSSSS.
I CAN RELATE. omg. I went 5 days in a row eating WONDERFULLY. . . then today I made cupcakes for my son's school and I literally ate have a dozen, then felt guilty so I started raiding the fridge. It's a horrible feeling, but you just have to know that EVERYONE goes through it. It doesn't matter whether or not they have an eating disorder, there is something in everyone's life that brings them down and makes them feel like they've lost. Guess what? There are also things that keep our heads held high. Just smile that you have tomorrow to fix it. Don't think of today as wasted, rather a lesson to learn from. Feel free to talk to me if you ever have those feelings again!!!
Thanks Candace. Your post got me thinking and made me smile. I appreciate it soo much and I say this all the time but its true that this site has helped me in realizing that I am not alone in my struggles. I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE. I doubt that a lot but the people here help me realize that there shouldn't be doubt. I'm not crazy. Thanks for the offer. I'll take you up on that!!!
hhahahahha thanks sonrisas---i know , this site helps out sooo much!!!
love
maureen