You might find this mad Last week I saw the remains of a man removed from his home , I heard the man went to the doctor feeling unwell days before and the doctor did the usual test and said he was fine but he couldn’t have been if he is dead. I have been telling my doctor I am not well but they did tests which came back clear and some not good . Have to wait another few months to see the specialist . I could die suddenly like that man or find I have something bad at the end of the year with few weeks to live.
Emotions come suddenly, chosen as they always are, followed by contingent thoughts.